Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Continued Stream-of-consciousness writing from my mother's view..........

Well, I've done it now....I've had a wreck.  I told them to call C (my cousin*****)  instead of Julia.  She would just get all upset and tell me I can't drive anymore.  It wasn't my fault, that lady hit me instead of the other way around, but it did take me too long to react and stop my car.  Oh good, here's C.  He'll know who to take my car to for getting it fixed.

It sure is taking a long time for them to fix my car.    They've had it for weeks. (****C told them to take as long as they possibly could!)  I guess I don't really need to be driving after all.  I think I'll tell Julia, S, and B(****my brother) and make them happy.

My car is finally fixed, but since I'm not going to drive anymore, I guess I'll sell it.

Today the worst thing happened....... I was getting ready for a Sunday reunion with some of my distant cousins.  I took off my alarm necklace that the kid's insist that I wear in case I fall at home.  I laid it on the vanity when I got in the tub, which was a mistake because I couldn't reach it.  I got down in the tub, and when I was through, I couldn't get out.  I ended up sitting there for hours.  Julia wasn't expecting me at church because one of my cousin's was taking me to the reunion.  I kept putting warm water in so I wouldn't get so cold.  I was able to reach my towel, but I could NOT get out.  Finally, my cousin came to the door and when I didn't answer it she came on in.  She found me and helped me out of the tub.  I guess I'll have to tell Julia, C, S, and B that this happened.  No telling what they'll do now.

Ok, so it wasn't so bad.  The kids got me a bench like seat for my tub, a shower head on a hose so I could rinse myself, etc..., a bar to pull up with, and a no slip pad in the bottom of the tub.  I will always have my phone or alarm necklace close enough to reach from now on, too.

I just keep on falling.  C came in today and caught me on my knees trying to crawl over to the couch to get up.  I have fallen so many times that it is scaring me.

I'm in the hospital.  I fell and when the ER doctors checked me out they said I was severely dehydrated.  So, I'm on an IV. 
I'm in rehab at a nursing home.  This place is awful and I'm scared.  S came and talked to me about maybe going to an assisted living facility instead of back home.  I don't think I can stand this!!!  I don't want to think about it.  I am not going!!!  I can stay home by myself.  I just need to take better care of myself..........................


  1. Julia- I am crying after reading the last 2 posts. I knew your new blog would be good for me. Sometimes my MIL is so mean to me and I just get so irritated, thinking to myself- I don't HAVE to help you out, I'm choosing to help you. I need to see things from her point of view and realize how angry she might be and how alone she must feel sometimes. I've also thought the last couple of days about how her life has not turned out how she wanted it to and what a disappointment that must be to her. Thank you for reminding me to have compassion and to try to be patient and try to figure out where her actions are coming from- I hope I have the chance to help you out with your confusion with your Mom as much as you are helping me out with my MIL. You are a blessing in my life- that is for sure.

  2. I got goosebumps when I read this one. This is all so familiar to me............

  3. I just now had a chance to start reading this blog. In some ways, I feel like I'm reading about my own mom. She went through a lot of the same things, but she never did learn how to drive so at least I didn't have that to worry about.